IN THE RECORDING

Ku mahu kesetiaan dan kejujuran
Kasih sayang yang tiada bersempadan
Pengorbanan cinta yang tulus dan lahir dari keikhlasan

Namun kau hanya mampu memberi janji palsu
Dan kita pun terdorong hawa nafsu
Semua yang kau berita benar dan tak kan menjadi erti
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Now playing: siti nurhaliza – ku mahu
via FoxyTunes

I’m actually listening to malay songs again.
Hais.
Yep.
I’m Emo.
EMOO
EMOOO
EMOOOO.

Man are hypocrites.(Read that again).It’s MAN not MEN.
I’ve lost my libido to write.
I’m playing with fire!!

Love me, love me, feed the flame
If you want me back again
Burn to the sky
Higher and higher
Baby, can you play with fire?
You never know just what’d you got till’ it’s gone
You freak out
But i’m not falling for that game
Boys like you, never change
You made me feel I wasn’t enough, wasn’t enough
For your love
But it was insecurity that made you run
It wasn’t me.
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Now playing: Hilary Duff – Play with Fire
via FoxyTunes

Can you tell that I’ve totally lost my drive to write.And that I’m still trying to make this a long post.
Let’s see,Going to watch a movie this Saturday with cassis.Personally,I hate movies.They are way too short.Especially those with hanging endings and no sequels.

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ACHES TO MY BONES.

DEAD TIRED.Yes I am.Came back from a really amusing day with V&H.
Talked about big lips and facials.We went around town FLANEURING. We were all aimless basically.
We went to TOYSrUS.
HAHA. Don’t mock me!*angar*

I’m in shit.My bill is higher than it should be.My parents are never contented with anything.Well, they forced me to take the line.They asked for it if you ask me.
I’ll be back.

SLOTH

If there  any one of the sins were to bring to my demise,It would most probably be SLOTH (Latin, acedia).SLOTH here is meant in its original meaning which is apathy,sadness, depression and joylessness.And not the reason why the animal is called a sloth ( laziness).

Every time i get out of a relationship which ended on a sour note,I’ll just hide away from the world.The self-isolation will provide temporary comfort.TEMPORARY!!.The world just stops for me.I would try so hard to pull myself together.I would push aside my friends *sorry guys*.I would not want to do anything much.Pathetic i know.
Whats worse?I binge. Yes. I eat when I’m depressed.hais.
Half the time, Wan will feel like killing me but he knows better than to do so.
HATE EMONESS
Signing out Afiq

CARING MUCH LESS / THE VIEWS OF TWO

  I dislike caring for certain people.The act fo showing care ans concern for these certain people just eats up your time.Time which you need.Friends who lose my respect are some of them.I just could not care less.Ice Queen statement,I know.But hey, I’m your ROYAL HIGHNESS.So bow down to me and grovel at my feet.

Trust is overrated.You provide trust and either the person still does not trust you or it’s shaky. You give trust to a person and it won’t last long.He/She may be very forward and honest but you will be overly suspicious.Trust,sounds like lust.Which sounds like bust.Which sounds like crust and dust.How about just and must and rust .

I want chocolate.Like not cheap chocolate.*hinthint*
SAYANG!!! .jk jk, you don’t have to go through the trouble.Unless it’s not troublesome then .. .

I live the O.C. life.Well apart from the houses,the cars and the money…
OH fineee Dawson’s Creek then.
I’ve been in 4 relationships in the period of one year.That’s not all. Want to see how each of them are interlinked?

N is my first.
S  is my second.
V is the third.
P  is my forth.

V dated ASH for 2 weeks before getting with me.
I dated ASH for 2 weeks before getting with my current.
P went out with N after i dumped P.
N played with P’s heart.
P is currently with someone whom remains anonymous to me.
I fear i might know that person.

Oh and S. S is just an arse.

Signing out WAn

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I need to be more funnier.HElp ,me please. I need an upgrade.

Signing out Afiq

UPDATE ON SINGAPOREANS

SAW THIS THREAD AND I JUST HAD TO SHOW IT HERE.
One of the replies on the post was this ;

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quote:

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Originally posted by Ferret:

actually, no.

cos if it doesnt fit, i just wont buy lah.

and its a couple of dollars for alteration.

what if I tell u the shirt is 99.99 ? then free alteration ? how ?

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I don’t mind..cuz I would think the alteration is really free..

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How pathetic is this?
This just reinforces the ‘NO CLASS’  statement.

SAD HUH!!

Tuesday CHILL OUTS

Today’s day was rather productive.I got things done.Very hilarious day.
Went out with Fiz.Thanks Fiz.We lip synced beautiful,waved at random passers-by,we had fun like crazy.

RANDOM RANT :: I LoooooooVE ALFIAN SA’AT’S WORK.I WANT TO MEET ALFIAN SA’AT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ANYWAYS
I’m now planning my future shop .I’m reading business books. My hopes and dreams are there before me.

I am done with regret.I am done with missing out on opportunities.I am done with listening to the squabbles others make.I am done with not listening to my own squabbles with myself,in search to find myself.I am done with not listening to myself.
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Now playing: Lindsay Lohan – Very Last Moment in Time
via FoxyTunes
Singapore is shit.Today,I faced two ungracious Singaporeans.Singapore is whacked.
The government,no comments.
The people,*shakes head*

1. no manners
2. no class
3. no identity
4. no individuality
5. no shame

ENVY AVAILABLE IN ASSORTED COLOURS

12 January was well spent.I ventured the East alone.I attended the open house held by Temasek Polytechnic.I bought apples and ate them as i roamed about the campus.I visited only two booths;Aviation management and services and Apparel design and merchandising.
I got all the information i needed for the AMS course but for the ADM, i was not approached by any one ( maybe cause i am a guy) and i felt like i shouldn’t be hanging around these parts. Though the irony is, through out the whole time i was there, I was chilling around the Design school building.

I sat for the fashion show,which was i had to say, VERY Agnes B.. Well,it could be because the label was based on music;ska,punk etc. I sat at the benches as the attendees moved away from the Design school atrium.I eyed student-artist graffiti-ing a mural.I observed tentatively as illusions of their imaginations turned into lines and details of reality.A lot of aerosol spray cans were used.The work was beautiful.

I then made my way back to Tampines interchange where i met Cassis. Cassis had met Harith H..Cassis and me planned to go out after.Cassis then called Harith H. to ask whether he wanted to tag along.When they were talking, I saw a smile on Cassis’s face.At that moment,i turned envious of Harith H.. I was envious of Hartih H. not because he was much taller or he looked much better than me.But because he made Cassis smile the way i never noticed him smiling like that while he is around me.We then went and chilled at the CBD area.Cassis shared about his funny customer’s antics .After which we got lost amongst the tall metropolitan and went our separate ways.

Had dinner at Simpang Bedok.It was a very hearty dinner.More than i expected but i’m glad i had it.I had Lebanon Rotisserie Chicken. Which was a chicken leg,two mashed potatoes,a couple of carrots,corn on cob and a broccoli.

Well,that’s all i guess for today’s post. Quite boring i know.Forgive me yeah.

WOULD A PICTURE CHANGE THE WAY YOU LOOK AT ME

Quite a usual Friday.I’m really getting hooked onto Evanescence.The goth group writes songs that people can say,”that has happen to me before”. Certain songs have the tendency to either be a figment of one’s dream or be full of the music but holds no pure meaning on lyric.

Ok.I’m completed with The Powerbook by Jeanette Winterson. Issue now is,can i give it back. Hahah.Joking Joking.I personally adored it.It gave me this drive to do what i love to do. It felt like Jeanette wrote the book straight from the purity of her heart and left it to explore the depths of her imagination.I had this image of her just pulling out random scenarios out of a fish bowl full of different scenarios waiting to be made immortal. It was both a fun and light read.I wouldn’t mind reading again….but don’t want to.OK next book.

I see a pair of tens on the coffee table.I could only hope it’s mine.I notice that i have this habit to remonstrate towards anyone whom i feel are in the wrong or whom i just feel need a wake up call.

It’s not only the Desperate Housewives who get moments of desperation but normal,real people like us who don’t live in Universal Studios too.

This is a post from a fellow blogger i know.

Most will just blame it on petty teenage angst.But small petty situations like this maybe a much bigger magnitude for the person who faces this issue.

Like the words of “The Fray”, provide the person a listening ear.Give temporary solace.Be there for the person and that is all we need to do.These small,little gestures of kindness brings a small glimpse of hope for those in need.
My family members have a very good impression of me.Very good boyboy.haha.Very kind.Very helpful.One of my aunt keeps on bragging that i can sing.Those who know me begs to differ.Just imagine if they know the kind of person i am.The other side of me.
Good gone boyboy…..

ACTORS ARE LIARS WHO GET PAID

photoshoping some pictures and reading through tutorials.In an hour,another day has passed.I’ll be taking more of those artistic pictures with my webcam .I will be editting them and making them look like they are something else.

A picture tells a thousand words but are those thousand words true?

LIKE A RE-PACKAGED ALBUM.

Now playing: Evanescence – Missing
via FoxyTunes

YES.I am at a new blog provider.I know many of you are pissed or half mad at me for jumping from Blogspot to GreatestJournal to Blogspot , then to LIVEJOURNAL and now this.Well I’ll have to say i’ll try to stick with this one for a long time *prays and hopes*.Immediate sorries for those who have to relink.

I’m stocking up on my songs (genre : punk/emo/Goth/etc ).Bands like Early November,Evanescence,Within Temptation,New Found Glory and some other band I’m unsure of.Made a new video to Missing-Evanescence.

Well I lost my No.6 tab on my num lock.Don’t Ask please.

Past Days have been spent with Best Friends.Best Friends are nature’s social equivalent to PROZAC.

*Shouts* Fatin I beg you please don’t feel neglected.

I know i’ve been ignoring you these past few Weeks but I’m really sorry.Quite a handful of events have fallen onto my plate.I hope you give me time to press pause.

Now playing: Evanescence – Understanding (Acoustic Version)
via FoxyTunes

Now playing: Nightwish – White Night Fantasy (Non-Album Bonus Track)
via FoxyTunes

I need cash badly.Hais.I need to find myself badly. I am a state of ‘Badly’ now. I went out the whole day, had a workout.I should be drained shouldn’t I.Yet I’m widely awake.

OH and this is for Tartar BOY.Few of the things i hate is pushing the blame.Another is to make the other party seem like the bad boy.You made yourself look perfect in every way.
So when this goes down, I’m the one that will be blamed.If they could only see you like I do.
Now playing: Evanescence – Lies (Alternative Version)
via FoxyTunes

You claim i speak of lies.
Along with the sins bad people do.
You saw no amount of tears i cried,
when you spoke of some one new.

Did you not see what laid bare before you?
Did you not notice the clarity of the status quo?
Clouded by insecurities.Your whole life a facade.
Enhanced and Edited like how you wanted it to be.

You were the eye at every corner.
You were the spy behind every turn.
You quit something You never tried
Please see how your life is a lie.

I’m no longing hanging onto you.
You muscle-bodied timidity.
I’m no longer thinking bout You.
You possessive Buck.

Now i nod my head like in the bar.
I’ve now gotten my emo rock star.

miss ya lots cassis.

Now playing: paramore-crush
via FoxyTunes

MY WANTS
*photo album
*good results
*bleached hair
*black skinnies
*black tops

au revoir guys.
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Now playing: Evanescence – Fallen
via FoxyTunes