THE INVALID TEST

A friend of mine emailed me this personality test which consist of 4 questions. well the link is here if you choose to take it before you continue reading which is most preferable

And the link is HERE.CLICK HERE

You sure you dont want to click here and do the test?

OK then. here is how the test goes.

Five animals are given,(horse,cow,tiger,sheep and pig).You will have to arrange them to your own choice of order based on favour i think.

Next is they give you words that you then put down the first thing that comes to your mind(word asociation)

This repeats for the next except that it is now colours?

My ANSWERs those in brackets are what i thought it meant.

cow-career-(i love cow)
horse-family – (freedom)
tiger-pride – (proud)
sheep-love – (fattening)
pig-money- (dirty)

dog; adorable personality
cat; puma partner
rat;dead dirty enemy
coffee;strong sex
sea;calming own life

yellow ili neve forget
orange bff true friend
red me you really love
white huzaini twin soul
green bro always remember

I gotta stop this crying thing

KILLING ME SOFTLY.

I walked through the toilet door.In the mirror,stared a beautiful face.I’m amazed by how wan can pull me out of the deepest pits of emotionality.Having a hot shower,its so relaxing.I started singing Stacie Orrico’s ‘I could be the one’.

You Take it all
You want me as I am

I could be the one
[ www.azlyrics.com ]

But Fiq, will always break the castles in the clouds and get realistic.
“what if I don’t like the way I AM”
“Why am i like this?”
I started breaking down.Banging my fists against the walls of the shower.I fell,seated on the shower floor.My body too heavy for me to lift it.My legs too weak to lift this emotional burden. The streams of water flowed down my body as i teared.The questions played like a repeated track as the water turned cold.A feeling i was able to relate to it was for once , comforting.

How could I HATE myself and LOVE myself at the same time?!IT’s FUCKING KILLING ME ! This is not depression.This is not emotionality.

A hero’s demise

Emotions have heighten.The bar has been raised and the war has begun.One freedom fighter fighting for,well,freedom.The other an empire standing strong.One playing the Offensive(Wan) the other,Defensive(Fiq).
SO far, one-love with the Offensive leading.

I’ve been having public breakdowns.Tearing in the company of parents,relatives & strangers.Wan has always been keeping a low.Being passive to everything fiq does.Re-assuring himself,everything will turn out fine.But it seems that wan is tired of waiting and giving in.You see

Fiq

• filial
• shy
• thinks of what people think of him
• quiet yet smart
• likes staying in
• obedient
• caring
• loving
• loyal
• timid
• realistic
• EMO

  Wan

• fun
• outgoing
• crazy
• wild
• show off
• exhibitionist(ish)
• doesn’t give a *BEEP* of what people think
• lives for the day
• bitch
• playful
• optimistic

So you see how these two clash. Many might think Wan is a creation and its as easy to put him out.But wan is anything but the manifestation of ideas and a product of boredom.He is part of me.I guess thats why my interests are quite varied and my taste is universal.I didn’t create him,i made myself aware of him.
Its better this way.It gives me some form of reasoning for my mixed opinions,feelings or choices(many may take it as indecisive).And since fiq is much of a loner and is timid,Wan is the support.This support becomes bilateral where they balance each other’s personalities.In Wan’s case,Fiq becomes like a conscience.It has always been a form of altruism where one sacrifices for the other.But i guess the time has come to stop.

I hope its a phase.

Where can i get hypnotic treatment?

I tend to push my problems away. That’s bad.I’ve got a new video . Please watch .

SHOCKING NEUS

“And the person who will be head to head in the finals would be David …ARCHULETA!”

What the F@@k!

HEART

the malay gangsta?
How traditional is traditional?
More critical now than ever?
Singapore has nothing precious?

These few topics have been in my mind running around back and forth,playing catching.

OK out of total randomness.I think blogger’s server is down or something. I can’t go to any blogger blog.
It gave a ‘403 forbidden error’.

I like essays (which i want to write).It’s like an exploration of undiscovered discoveries .We learn new things and get smarter. It’s a really good feeling actually.

I wanna go and chill at earshot cafe with suarez and trent.I miss hem like lots.

Ok lets get it started.
i have touched briefly on how Singapore has nothing precious in my previous post , ‘Too Early Morning’.
THe gauge of how traditional is the term traditional used in the current context is something i can’t write about cause my resources aren’t here yet.

BIg Balls OF FIre

I’m blogging in the bus can you believe it? Well not exactly seeing that i’m not on online.

Going to and fro from school,The same students populate the buses.I am getting this X-men,Sky high Vibe.Preferably X-men. Like RP is a special school for these mutant types.With the school already running much differently than it’s other counterparts,it contributes to the idea of a difference.Furthermore,it’s all white and glass exterior and greenery,it gives a “future,sci-fi” feel to the school.Walking around campus,I’m just badly waiting for some one to shoot out a fireball or something.

Can’t you tell I’m getting bored?

BAREBACK HURTS

morning to all.

Yesterday’s auditions were fun.I forgot like a lot of the steps.HAHa . trip home was a blast.With Purani,She is such a good bitch.LOLMy body is aching after yesterday’s repeated practice and bad sleeping posture.i fell asleep while doing my rj. LOL.

I’m making my videos now. I love myself.And no one knows that more better than Purani.